Surviving!

We have almost made it through our first week of school and can I just say WOW! It has been an interesting 4 days so far and Matthew and I are praying that tomorrow (Friday) comes quickly. My classes are everywhere. I love them all so far and see no problem with the work load or anything like that. It is the times that are so crazy. I have classes that begin at 8am and classes that begin at 5:45pm! I feel like a yo-yo right now. On the plus side, I have actually been able to cook for my poor hubby who was lucky if I ever cooked for him last semester. I made menu plans for every day of the week for the next month and would you believe I have actually been sticking to them. I have been cooking our dinners around lunch time after we eat that way they are nice and ready for us by the time we actually get to eat again. We have also been doing really good...so far...in doing all of our homework and not shurking it off to watch TV or something. One thing I have really really enjoyed is all the time we are together again. I almost forgot how great that is! Last semester I was off track but went to school anyway and was still working my 40 hour week at nights and Matthew was working his 40 hours during the day so it felt like we were more like roommates that companions last semester. This semester we get to wake up and have breakfast, and most lunches and dinners together, not to mention the time between classes. It has been so great to reconnect with my hubby again and actually flirt and cuddle instead of just having conversations as we pass by each other on our way to something. I cannot even explain how nice it feels to be "back" to us. I love him so much and can honestly say that I missed him a whole bunch. He is my rock and the most supportive husband a girl could ever dream of. I love him, and he loves me.
Something else going on in our lives is that I am contemplating joining Weight Watchers. I have always been "not skinny" we will call it and have slowely gained a few pounds here and there since college and marriage, but this thyroid problem is making me gain like crazy. I have gained around 20 pounds in about 2 months! I do not feel like myself anymore and have troubles doing the tasks I used to be able to do so easily. I feel so out of control and helpless. I can see myself starting to get depressed and avoiding things that I used to like to do. I never get dressed up anymore because none of my clothes fit. I rarely put make up on because I don't like looking in the mirror. My self-esteem is at an all time low and I feel if I don't get control of it now, I never will. Matthew has been so amazing and supportive of me through this whole thyroid experience and stands by me every step of the way. How fortunate am I to have him in my life! I know that not everyone is that lucky and some men might even get upset with their wives for something like this, but Matthew just hugs me, brushes away my tears, tells me he loves me more than ever, and asks how he can help. How did I ever deserve him? He is ready to jump in with me and help me to get healthy again. I am so thankful that I don't have to feel scared to discuss things like this with him and that no judgement is passed between either of us. I am so thankful that he wants to participate WITH me and not just leave me alone to tackle things on my own. I am so thankful for him and everything that he does for our family. I am so thankful for his understanding. As I sit in school typing this, I cannot help but tear up at how blessed my life truly is even though some days are much harder than others. And even though I probably look ridiculous sitting in the lobby with other people around me while I cry at my computer, I know that I am loved and that is all that matters to me.